6 years and Nothing

It is that time of year when everything is about to end, well everything that has been a commonality in my life for 6 years that is. to put it simply college is ending. graduation is near, and the end of an epic journey on the academic road is at its end. the final countdown begins the last semester. the relentless pressure of the thesis, the CGPA, the admissions to other universities, the friends lost and found, the hangouts, the college functions, the council, the management and last but not the least the college politics… Oh how i dread my time in college…. always wanting it to end but now that i see the end is near. why doesn’t it feel nice. after all this was what i wanted is it. Like what Amartya Sen says its not necessary that we find happiness, in what we think we want. Instead happiness can be found in the strangest of ways….don’t get me wrong now.

also the fact that human nature is never satisfied or content with what one has until its gone. but this is not the main point that i wanted to put out there. Seeing that graduation is near i but cant help thinking the Big - Ultimate question What have i achieved so far in life, What do i have to show for it. After all  I’m graduating. Its over my time to actually accomplish something in life is over.. now you all must be thinking I’m out of my mind considering college life to be the end of achieving something in life well 75% the achievements one makes starts from school continues in college and carries on in later life. After al its college where we are given the opportunity to experiment with all fields study and life itself. there is another scenario here even if a person doesn’t get to a lot in college they still get a sense of direction of what they want to be or do when they are out of college but for me that doesn’t  apply either. I’m still clue less as to my future. As to my true calling is there is such a thing. I wont be so naive to say that 6 years of college education was a total waste for me. I did in fact learn. I learnt about people, about relationships about human behavior in various aspects and conditions and about work. But what do I have to show for all this. i mean these aren't the kind of things one can put on paper and show the world. After graduation there is no turning back all the time that was given is gone now i can only hope and pray. Even when you start working you don't really achieve anything as such, you just become a slave of the system, a system that was hidden from you or should i say a system you were protected from because of an excuse named College. once that excuse is gone your exposed to something that is the same as college but the experience is on a much grander scale. the things in “real life” are multiplied 100x in magnitude. all you can do is keep dodging all the blows and wait for the opportune moment to make your move. but that is a story for another time. for now the idea of all the time lost or wasted put either way is daunting enough. 6 years and nothing more than the sands of grain slipping from my fingers. All i could do was watch in vein.